On rubbish dentists, Stupid Phoenix, Drug Books, Book Club & Daemons

[shewho]

I should have had my final* filling this morning, but my dentist cancelled on me, ill. This is the 2nd out of 3 appointments total where he’s done this, and the other one I fear he was drunk / hungover. I’m a bit wary of my dentist.

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It has been a week of endings. I have FINALLY finished Phoenix Wright 2, hurrah! Edgeworth remains totty, Franziska remains irritating, a busty dead woman in a child’s clothes / body remains Quite Wrong. What next? Shall I attempt to catch up to p_dan_tic in Hotel Dusk? Or train my brain a bit? Or even let p_dan_tic have his console back? Decisions!

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Also finished: Leaving Dirty Jersey by James Salant (thank you barrysarll ). A true account of descent into crystal meth addiction and the accompanying filthy lifestyle. I’m in 2 minds about this book. My thinking mind doesn’t find it desperately engaging, and a lot of the time I’ve been thinking ‘so what?’, but occasionally, as was the case this morning, I have managed to de-tune my brain to a Sunday-afternoon-way-home-from-Friday state of being, and all the crazy decisions suddenly make sense and are reasonable, and *I’m* losing track of time and what day it is and what’s real, so perhaps the book is doing exactly what it should do.

My major gripe would be a lack of description of what it actually feels like when doing meth. Everything else sounds so sordid, there has to be a payback. What is it? It only makes me more curious, which is Very Dangerous. Actually, there is a fabulous** description of an overdose, which had me thinking ‘oooh that sounds intriguing, must try it someday’ before catching the thought and slapping myself hard in the face.

I don’t think I should ever try crystal meth. Which isn’t to say I wouldn’t. This book has not changed my mind. I (mentally) walk a dangerous tightrope of complete hedonist*** (More, more, more! Must try EVERYTHING! New experience? Yes! Please!) and extreme control freak**** which mostly keeps me in check. Well, there’s a whole range of checks and balances, but it mainly works. Perhaps I’ll not mess with it.

Next book on the list: Naked Lunch. I feel like tackling it again. Last time I tried I couldn’t really get into it properly. Time to give it another go…

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Last night, return to the Book Club at the Albany. Pretty quiet numbers wise, but fun. Accidental drinking of too much wine***** and being seated at the front means I get to be martylog’s autocue. Try very hard not to sing along in a karaoke style. This is hard when a shewho is on stage and there is music. Sorry! Phil Jeays sensibly turns down my offer of repeat word carrying, and uses a music stand, boo. I like the Phil Jeays band, but I’m more’n happy just to see them live occasionally, rather than listen to stuff at home. I also like Tom Bell and his mate Ed’s (?) sketch. Jo Neary reads old diaries. Man, if only I could find my diary. I called it Christian. Guess why! I like Natalie Haynes. I like Dan Trap. I like Chris Neill. I like Robin Ince. WHY WON’T HE READ FROM THE CRAZY BEATLES LADY BOOK THE BIG TEASE? Ahem. Peter Buckley Hill weirds me out with bottom obsessing. I have forgotten to tell braisedbywolves why he scared me before. What else was there? I dunno. Wine. I had a lovely evening.

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Oh, and I’ve got a daemon too. It would appear to be a mouse. A mouse!! I ask you. Anyway, under the cut you can click and see if you agree with the outcome or not. Change me into a ferret or a cockroach, who knows!

* For the moment
** ‘Fabulous’? Bad choice of word. Probably.
*** Thanks mum…
**** Thanks dad…
***** Yeah, yeah, I know. Had a duck egg on toast as emergency feel better breakfast. Found 1/3 a bottle of wine in my bag. Err, hurrah for screwtops?

Comments

[mark13.livejournal.com]

crystalmethisgreatmakesyoufeeelyouknowkindawowlikereallyreallygoodspeedbutevenmoreeuphoricandrushyandindestructiblelikeyou'rethekingoftheworldonlynotlikethatguyontitaniconlyttroubleisthatsometimesitcanmakeyouveryparanoidandpanickyindeedwhichisprobablynotagoodthing.

*twitch*

[shewho.livejournal.com]

dammnit, you're only encouraging me!

see, the book gets across the paranoia and obsessiveness over really well, it's just the hit that's missing. tempted.

[braisedbywolves.livejournal.com]

Aiiee you've tricked me into some Phillip Pullman wrongness, haven't you?

[shewho.livejournal.com]

Oh noes! You don't like His Dark Materials? I CAN NEVER SPEAK TO YOU AGAIN.*







*Possibly untrue.

[braisedbywolves.livejournal.com]

Haha one of my friends brings this up every time I disagree with her on anything media-related "Yeah but you hate The Dark Materials, so why should I listen to you on anything?"

[shewho.livejournal.com]

with my dubious taste i am really not one to judge...!

[shewho.livejournal.com]

You've turned me into a wolf?? YEAH!

[braisedbywolves.livejournal.com]

Oh very imaginative, 'Golden Compass' movie site - dude has 'wolves' in his name, go for the wolf. That's racist!

[shewho.livejournal.com]

wolves are GOOD.

see:
dick wolf
secret wolf
when we were wolves

umm....

[ultraruby.livejournal.com]

Patrick Wolf!

AIRWOLF!

Actually, last night I had a dream in which someone encouraged loads of us to take a drug called 'Wolf'. I wouldn't take it so instead I sat with my feet in the sea and then zipped myself into a floral bedjacket. You were there standing in my kitchen doorway with Dan and loads of Bedroom Bar people, and I was stood with this flowery hood up going 'what?'

Ahem. Maybe you didn't need to know that.

[shewho.livejournal.com]

That's not a dream, it's a PREMONITION!

Cor, lots of good wolves. Teen Wolf!! Well, the dancing at least :)

Wolf the terrible film, or at least the hilarious James Spader fight scenes.....

[green-badger.livejournal.com]

You seem to have become a peacock... not sure what caused that!

[shewho.livejournal.com]

i suppose i'm vain and glitzy enough....!

[green-badger.livejournal.com]

I do not recall it asking if you were vain and glitzy.

If mine is not a hippo I will sulk big time.

[shewho.livejournal.com]

it probably did, in a way that probed your subconscious. or, er, not. i don't think there were any hippos in it....

[green-badger.livejournal.com]

No hippos? :(

[braisedbywolves.livejournal.com]

We were all Very Proud of you when you screwed the top back on and put the wine in your bag.

Also haha at

"Will you share a bottle of wine with me, Isabelle?"
"No!"
"Clare?"
"No."
"Lauren?"
"No."
"Andrew!"
"No! Dude, do you remember what happened last time?"
"No!?"
"...."
"Oh"

[shewho.livejournal.com]

haha :)

All. The. Class.

Yeah.

[green-badger.livejournal.com]

How did you get your daemon behind a cut? Mine doesn't seem to want to go...

[shewho.livejournal.com]

usual lj-cut tags either side.

use the code from the site, not the email. it won't show on preview but will show on post!

[green-badger.livejournal.com]

I did both of those things.
It appears he actually is behind a cut, and was just pretending not to be.
Now he has turned into a stoat. I don't know if that is as good as an ocelot!

[col-d.livejournal.com]

does your dentist use gin as an anasthetic?

pretend i'm using the gin icon

[shewho.livejournal.com]

only for himself.....!

Re: pretend i'm using the gin icon

[col-d.livejournal.com]

*pretends*

[talkingtocactus.livejournal.com]

mine was a fox, called arkadion. presumably because i was a fox, once upon a time ;)

[shewho.livejournal.com]

have i not changed you yet? i'm sure you're *still* a fox obviously!

[talkingtocactus.livejournal.com]

have i not changed you yet?

what does this mean?

i might be, when weight watchers begins to work!

[shewho.livejournal.com]

did you post it on your journal i mean? because then people can answer the questions as they see you and the animal changes accordingly. i've lost track of which i have done!

[talkingtocactus.livejournal.com]

aah - well i tried but it didn't like it.

[verlaine.livejournal.com]

But, dude you are totally a whippet.

So much so that, after I turned you into a ladybird by accident, I turned you back again, heh heh :)

[shewho.livejournal.com]

i am TOTALLY NOT.

i really hope you *didn't* turn me into a ladybird and then a stupid dog. it would be safest if you NEVER SET FOOT IN THE COUNTRY AGAIN if that's teh case! :P

also, yeah! i appear to be a monkey again. i don't mind that. as long as it isn't racist..... ;)